Disappointed and Confused...

I don't feel safe anymore and I don't know what to do about it. I've been kept beautifully and peacefully protected all my life even when I didn't care for it, but somethings not the same now. Why did it change and What the hell do I do??? Please help me Lord Jesus! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH!!!!

I'm not too late! There is still 1 hour and 27 minutes left of this day. I have been thinking about you girl! Hope you had a fabulous day!! See you in a few!! Yay!!!! Love you!!!

U-turns

They LEGAL here in Ft. Wayne IN and they save me so much time:)

Dumbest City

I appearently just moved to it. Yes, Fort Wayne was just voted the dumbest city in the U.S. by the Men's Health magazine. Even places like Laredo Texas and Las Vegas beat us. (The smartest are said to be Minneapolis, Boston, and Denver). I guess they used things like Bachelor's degrees per capita, residents' SAT scores, state creativity scores (patents per capita, for instance) as assessed by Catalytix and the Richard Florida Creativity Group, number of universities, and number of Nobel Prize winners for physics and medicine born within city limits to help them come to this conclusion. The city is not too happy about the diagnosis, but that is something you kinda help bring upon yourself. Anyway, I'm not sure if this makes me feel better or worse about moving here.

Other than that, things are going alright. Hoping to find a job(s) this week. There is a part time office job at Taylor that I really want but I don't know when I will be hearing about it. Kinda nervous about all this but I know God is faithful and He will see me through! I am also learning my way around the city a bit. In the past couple days I have been all over the place though with Rach at the wheel and I still am getting very lost at times. In about every direction from our apartment there is a different shopping center (a couple with malls, 2-3 walmarts around, etc.). It will be really handy to have about any store I would want to go to within about 15min. of home, but for now the process of sorting it all out is going pretty slow. Well, I guess I have only been here 3 whole days so I still have an excuse! I don't like the stop and go of city driving and the drivers here are just dumb, but the awesome thing is that u-turns are legal. You can do it right in the middle of the road as long as nobodys coming!!!! This could/is really going to save me some time in the near future:)

M&M's

I don't just eat my M&M's randomly unless there are time restraints. From as far back as I can remember I have sorted out my M&M's (or skittles even) so that I can see how many of each color I have and then I eat them down at the same rate. I don't actually count them out until I have gotten them down to about 3 or 4 of each color. Brown has never been a favorite color so the rules didn't always apply to them, though one is always saved out. One was/is saved out from each color. These cause the most indecision. Do I eat them slowly away from the least to the greatest color depending on which color combinations I want to be left along the way, or do I just eat them all at once to save me the hassle. I'm too lazy to carry this all out to psychotic proportions bit it never hit me until tonight that even this much might be weird. It's just my normal way to eat M&M's. I am thankful though that there are only 6 colors.

I got a car!

This is not my actual car but it looks exactly like it. In all reality this blog is 4 days late. I really got the car last Friday, but most of you that read my blog and/or care that I just bought a car already knew about it. However, I decided that despite the interest, or lack thereof, of my readers I wanted to blog about getting the car so that someday I could look back and actually see when it took place. My memory is notoriously bad and in just a couple months (if not before) I will already be having trouble remembering when this momentous occasion took place. Well, momentous in that this is the first time I have actually paid for a car and had it in my name. Maybe I should be a little more honest and say that this is the first time I have actually borrowed money to buy a car and had to pay the insurance on it. Call me the moocher that I probably am but my totally awesome older brother has supplied me with my previous means of vehicular transportation, and since the insurance agency never noticed that I was added to the policy (or something like that) I have never had to pay insurance. :) Well, poor Rob was billed for the cars that were in his name but like the moocher I am I let him continue to pay it all.
So, before I forget, the new beauty is a '98 Malibu. It is white with about 114,000 miles on it. The interior is pretty good, a little wear and tear but not too bad. The worst part is that it smells like a detailed car. I hate that smell but it isn't as strong as it used to be. Maybe it helped that in the first 2 nights that I had it I drove home from my friends farm smelling like manure. All I can say is "Yea for cows!":)

The best kind of fishing

Cynthia and I took another trip into our childhood today. We went minnow and crayfish fishing. We gathered the necessary conglomeration of buckets, donned our big knee high galoshes, and headed into the woods. We wandered around up the creek for a little while to look around as it has changed alot since I was down there last, but once we started fishing we went at it with a vengeance. We were a little rusty at the catching bit at first, but eventually we got better at it and we came home with alot of friends!:) One of the biggest obstacle we had to get past was wading into the deep water. The creek really isn't very big at present but there were some pretty "deep" places were the water came up a few inches over the top of our boots. Once our boots filled up the first time though it really didn't matter anymore. The only thing you had to be careful about is that you didn't get too carried away with the activities at hand that you happened get your rear damp as you were hunkering down. In the end Cynthia was the mighty crayfish hunter (she had 6 and I had 1), and I didn't too bad in the minnow department (we estimated that Cynthia caught about 5-8, and I got 20-23 of the 28 total). We were quite proud of our performance, especially as Cynthia had about a 3in. long crayfish and I had a couple 4in. long minnows! We had to haul them all up the hill to show them off to our parents of course. They humored us with eeews and aaahs, and then it was back down to say goodbye to the news friends.
I felt like a little kid again all day, especially when I found an awesome clay deposit on the creek bank and took a break from fishing to play with it for awhile, but it was all still as much fun as I remember it being:) It was great watching Cynthia! She hadn't played down there as much when she was young so she started a bit slow, but once she got going I couldn't have drag her away if I wanted to. Her enthusiasm was a little suprising but very fun to watch. Our whole venture took about 3 hours and we were ready for lunch when we got back!